... this deployment hasn't been as bad as I'd expected. I'm not saying it's been a cake-walk either (because OMG IT SURE HASN'T), but my expectations going into it were: cry all day long and then drink wine all night long and have screaming children all day long, lather, rinse, repeat. I'm happy to report that only one of those things is a constant and I can honestly tell you that it's not the wine part (sadly). Or the crying part. My kids are definitely needy little creatures though.
Since doing the Advent calendar thing, I'm sure might appear that I've got my ahem, "stuff" together and I'm rockin' and rollin' all night long over here. (But I don't because haaaaaaaa who has time to stay up late for anything when you could be sleeping?!) We most certainly have good days when we do playdates and get laundry done and I cook dinner and we all shower. But other days we have not-so-good days.
Days where we eat hot dogs for dinner (just hot dogs, and sometimes, just ketchup if your name ends in Sam).
Nights where people summon me to their rooms only to present me with handfuls of poop.
Days where I lose track of how many times I drop the f bomb.
Nights when I look at my bed and wonder whyyyyyy my husband isn't in it.
Days where I wish I had caffeine test strips for my breast milk because I'd suddenly started a coffee diet.
Nights where tiny people wake up screaming and I can't figure out what's wrong with them.
Days without showers. Multiple days straight without showers. (As in, sometimes many more than two, my apologies to everyone in the greater Ft Campbell area.)
Nights spent wondering what that noise was.
Days watching my kids do new cute things and not grabbing my phone or camera fast enough to capture it for their daddy.
Despite all of that, I feel comfortable saying that I think we're past the point of just surviving and are thriving. I'd be lying if I said this was easy or that I sometimes look at the calendar and days have passed before I've realized it. No. This phenomenon people keep telling me about where days turn into weeks that turn into months that fly by before your eyes- that is not happening here. (Quit it with the lies, people.) But we have finally hit a deployment milestone. Although I can't share which one it is (OPSEC), I'm sure you're still excited nonetheless and will eat a piece of chocolate (or hell, the whole box) on my behalf.
You are thriving not just surviving. Keep it up. Not only CAN you do this but you ARE!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy to hear you're all adjusting well. HOLLA! I'm actually quite nervous for the next deployment as all previous separations have not included any little creatures! Aaaaahhhh!
ReplyDeleteAlso--the new pic up top....could you be any more smoking hot?
I seriously laughed out loud when I read "poop: as a label.
ReplyDeleteAlso, yay deployment milestone!
And *hugs* just hugs.
deployments.... I got nothing but hugs and respect for ya, lady.
Keep on going girl! You are one strong woman! :)
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I will be drinking some wine and eating chocolate in honor of you tonight. I am blown away by women who do this shit with children. It is just me and the dog and I am already freaked out.
ReplyDeleteAlso, not sure when you added that new profile picture on the upper right, but it is a super hot pic. Love your hair
You are doing great!!! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you guys have made it to a milestone! Those are HUGE! And trust me I never got to the point where days turned into weeks which turned into months. I survived day after day. I think you are doing AMAZING! Remember I'm just a text away, even if it's just to have an adult conversation :)
ReplyDeleteHugs to you and remember you are not alone. Deployments are not easy, and anyone who says they are, are lying :)
I had many doctor appointments while Justin was gone and I was growing a human. That kept my showering frequency up. The worst part for me is definitely night time noises!! If it makes you feel better the other day I was getting Quinn dressed and he asked where we were going. I said nowhere but we can't stay in our pajamas all day. He held up his hand in a 'wait a minute' gesture and said- mom, we do stay in pajamas all day a lot so this is not the time for clothes.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing so so great, Mama! Hooray on a milestone! And you look GORGEOUS in your profile picture. Are you trying to torture poor Steve from afar? :)
ReplyDeleteyou are doing an amazing job! I am so impressed by you! also wine and sister wives this week!!!
ReplyDeleteWe'll make up for the wine part of the equation in January :) But more importantly, I am SO in awe of you mama! Thrive on! (and I'll finish the chocolate bar I started at lunch tonight in your honor).
ReplyDeleteAt least you can hide your non-showered hair in your curls, my straight hair gets all kind o greasy after a day. You are awesome, next milestone: BLATE!
ReplyDeleteEating chocolate for you now.. while I procrastinate away my homework due in a little over 2 hours. My bad. So I am one of those liars.. it may not FEEL like it, but at some point you will be surprised just how much time has passed. I mean hello milestones are a sign time is passing!!! Oh and that shower thing.. totally a deployment symptom. When the person you have to look good for is not currently stateside... why look good? Haha.. that was my theory so I guess you could say we are/were in the same deployment boat!
ReplyDeleteGirl, I knew I could smell you all the way over here...and I am totally kidding. You are human so you should be pretty proud of yourself for everything you are doing (quite well). All those stepford army wives are all probably full of [4 letter word]. That all being said, I hope you get to drink some more wine soon.I think that is the trick to passing the time.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your milestone. I'm opening the champagne now...Is noon too early? ;)
ReplyDeleteI feel ya with the hotdog situation. Yesterday, K had pizza and bread. All day. I just couldn't force anything healthy or of the meaty persuasion down his tiny throat. I really didn't feel bad either. It's Christmas after all.
Keep going girl! Just one foot in front of the other...and I have been enjoying all the cute things your kids do as well :) I'm glad someone gave me an excuse to eat chocolate, as if the holidays aren't enough!
ReplyDeleteI am glad you have found your stride!
ReplyDeleteYay for your milestone! When I single mommed for four months, to one child, I went to bed exhausted every night. You are a warrior.
ReplyDeleteI don't know how, but sometime after the first 3 or 4 months, time started flying. The not so good days, I've been there. Pasta with a glob of sauce is my go-to meal. And I go to it almost everyday. Be proud that all three of you thriving. You're doing a great job!
ReplyDeleteDeployment milestones are the best!
ReplyDeleteI'll happily eat some chocolate in your honor.
Actually, I'll drink some chocolate wine, because that's way better :D